Finding gay love, in a medieval world

You are the heir to a lordship. You are smart and brave, and everything your family diligently trained into you, to be the perfect heir, the perfect firstborn. The only problem is that you are gay. From childhood you quickly learned how frowned upon any relationships between men were, thus you quickly learned to hide this side of yourself. Over time you have accepted that your life may be destined to loneliness, until at a grand ball a new member of the merchant guild has recently moved in and has been making waves across the kingdom. You swear that he sees through your gaze, that he knows your secret. Yet, he doesn't berate you, doesn't shun you. In fact you are beginning to believe, he may carry that same secret...